Awakening so often begins with questioning: from slight whispers to very loud demands, we begin to look for answers. Honesty with our selves is the first step. It is crucial for building a solid foundation in a life with depth and meaning. As we grow and expand, we come back to this basic tenant, time and again. Honoring and respecting our feelings for just what they are--feelings--begins to free us from the entanglement of believing we ARE our feelings. To awaken means to decide to pursue self-mastery. This decision comes with taking responsibility, in the most loving way, of our inner landscape. As we love and respect our inner lives--or our Selves--our exterior lives change. We also begin to live from our own deep, innate wisdom that has always been there. We then begin to (and eventually fully do) trust who and what we are, understanding on a visceral level how we can further serve humanity. Yes, even you! This is not a pipe dream and while it may feel that way while we're clearing out the old, out dated ways of thinking and being, we are gaining a depth and clarity of real experience. Our minds were never put in place to facilitate true understanding, or wisdom, in order to awaken. Rather, our bodies and the choices we make in our lives, are the true vehicle for awakening and self mastery. Our minds just run the program, but our bodies and feelings decide what that program is. As we change and grow with our inner experiences (and change the program we're running), this then is reflected in our outer lives.
What if we already are perfect?
The language of our souls are different than the language of our minds. Our soul, or heart, speaks the language of truth and beauty while our culture speaks the masculine language of right/wrong, good/bad. Oftentimes those of us on a spiritual path get caught up in the perfectionism of being spiritual enough in order to bypass our spiritual process that includes struggle. Learning to speak the language of our hearts invites us to get very real with ourselves, to not only recognize, but to follow through, on our truth. In today's episode, we talk about this as well as anger as a lifetime of buried feelings, the slow death of perfection, and allowing--an act of the feminine.
Children perpetuate consciousness on the planet. As the extended forms of their parents consciousness, they come here at a higher vibration. Their existence urges the parents and those around them to rise to the occasion and raise their own vibration with a deeper awareness of self and life. In today's episode, we explore soul families, unity consciousness as our origin, and some practical steps to take (and questions to ask) in moments of disharmony with our children, applicable to both our physical children and inner children. When we can meet our children with more and more consistency at their higher vibration, we are expanding our own consciousness while giving them the gift to move into even greater expanded awareness. This is evident in well-adjusted and empowered adults today who's parents met them where they were in a supportive, loving environment. This expansion relationship doesn't stop once they are 18, or once we are a certain age with our own inner children. Parents who continue to expand themselves towards their children (both inner and outer) well into old age are gifting all future generations with living more expanded, joyful, empowered lives. It's powerful and beautiful work that is fundamental for the future of not just your soul family, but the consciousness of all.
What does it mean to awaken? What happens as we awaken--what does that process look like? In today's episode, I give a generalized outline of what awakening and integration look and feel like for us. The four main stages: awakening, seeking, connecting, and finally, total embodiment are meant to be a guideline with an understanding that there are many nuances throughout--because each of us are individuals on our own journey's. As we integrate, it can feel scary and deeply challenging because it's so new. The newness is so deep in fact, that we feel like we're literally in the dark. Our eyes, hearts, minds, and feelings have never before experienced much of what is occurring, therefore giving us nothing to base these experiences on and giving the impression we are in the dark. As we move through our integration, we become more and more accustomed to what's happening through practices such as compassion, meditation, tai chi and yoga, to name a few.
In today's episode, privilege and courage are discussed in the aftermath of recent hate crimes and racist protest in the U.S. As a white woman myself, I know first hand the courage it takes to acknowledge this, as well as questioning what it is I am doing with that privilege. There's no one perfect answer for us all, but the beauty is that we all have our own individual answers. With millions of us taking responsibility for what courage means for us, and then taking small steps to act out that courage in our worlds and the world at large, we create momentum in disabling racism and hate from the ground up. But it takes masses--many of us doing what it takes in our own way, in our own lives, to create a greater change. My intention is to continue this conversation many have been having on their own or in small circles around the globe. I want to see this topic get more traction, insighting deeper personal inquiry into what each of us can do on a daily basis. Perhaps for some, it is an act of courage to listen to these types of conversations at all. Whatever your flavor of courage is, keep going. The world needs you. (Side Note: my puppy and dog were playing in the room next door with squeaker toys! Throughout the podcast, you may hear random squeaking---it's my dogs playing and the universe saying, there's always two sides to every reality!).
Anxiety is nothing new to the human condition. We've all felt it to some degree in our lives, some of us more acutely (and more often) than others. When ignored, anxiety can begin to creep into our present lives as destructive behavior caused by destructive beliefs. So how do we deal with the very uncomfortable feelings of anxiety, usually accompanied by spiraling, swirling uncontrollable thoughts? We'll explore the root cause of anxiety and an approach to healing it in today's episode.
The ancient Hawaiian Kahuna culture has been teaching and living a spiritual practice known as Ho'oponopono since, according to their tradition, the beginning of time. And it is a timeless, universal practice. Combining compassion, forgiveness and love, the practice of Ho'oponopono (translating to: I'm sorry, please forgive me, thank you, I love you) is self-directed for healing old wounds which create suffering in our present lives. It's another tool in our tool box for turning our gaze inward to heal both what's inside as well as manifest our soul's calling in our lives today.
When life presents us with situations that are challenging, creating suffering, it is asking us to turn to the root cause of the pain--the moment in your life, usually as a child, when we made a connection to believing in something limiting, hurtful, fearful and victimizing. As we practice true compassion, or other practices like Ho'oponopono, we begin to unravel those beliefs deeply, inside our brains, and our world literally transforms around us.
For some of us, when we come across teachings such as compassion that are so powerful and true, we are excited and may try them a little, but deep down don't really believe they will work for us. As someone who completely understands this and went through similar blocks, I encourage and urge you to keep trying with a self-compassion practice. Next podcast I'll be giving a step-by-step of how I send compassion to myself that has worked deeply. In the meantime, he practice of Ho'oponopono is a great place to start (and continue with) on our journey to connecting with and living from our soul's purpose.
Today's episode is a short guided meditation. Focusing on recognizing, reconnecting and acknowledging the space between our thoughts and our Selves, this meditation will help cultivate a mindful perspective when thoughts try to take over the drivers seat. Practiced long term, we can begin to untangle ourselves more regularly from triggers, reactions and quick, unconscious judgments (or programming) allowing ourselves to be present in the moment. When we are present amidst the chaos, our choices reflect our inner guidance/drive (as they also do when we're enmeshed in the chaos, but not how we'd like them to be) putting us directly into the drivers seat of our lives, steering us the way we ultimately want to live.
In today's episode, we're asking the hard question: how do I know what to do? How do I know when to keep fighting, when to turn the page, and know the difference? Does this information live in your gut? Your heart? Is it out there in the Universe waiting for us to grasp or find? Is it beyond our control? A wonderful set of questions asked by one of our listeners, join us in discovering just how to understand what it means to "know" what do to and when to do it; what it means when you "find" the answer you've been seeking "out there"; and why the answer is actually never "out there" but always, always within.
Today's episode explores equanimity: what it is, how to cultivate and apply it in our lives, and it's foundations in the principles of non-violence. Through examining our response to suffering, both outside of us and within, we begin to peel back the many layers of our own responses. The roots of suffering are a false sense of separateness and equanimity, or the practice of peace, is the culmination of practicing compassion, loving-kindness, mindfulness, and light-heartedness. When we laugh, we're in equanimity, when we extend true compassion or love to others or our selves, we're in equanimity. Today, let's begin our journey on discovering how to do that together.
In this week's episode, we explore what it means to be an empath. No longer considered as "out there," emapths are finding their voice and power in today's society. We look at the attributes of an empath, the differences between highly sensitive people and empaths, rekindling or cultivating our empathic abilities, and the importance of loving kindness and compassion in specifically an empath's life.
Mindfulness is a wonderful tool that anyone can learn and use. It's non-secular nature makes it accessible for virtually anyone willing to learn. And yet, there is a powerful link between mindfulness and spirituality. The two are not necessarily mutually exclusive. As one begins to deepen their mindfulness practice, they can begin to have more spiritual experiences and understandings. When we merge the two, our spiritual path can become a source of strength and integrity for our entire lives. In this episode, we explore how mindfulness can open our hearts to receiving spiritual intuition, the importance of non-judgment in that process, and the beauty of choice.
Hi folks! It's here! The long awaited podcast is live. I'll be posting weekly, examining topics and questions you send me about consciousness, awakening, mindfulness, mind-body connections and other things along those lines.
In today's episode, we explore the question: what is love. We'll look at love from an emotional, felt sense, as well as what it is in universal form. Broken down into it's simplest components, love is the opposite of fear, and, love is more than our emotions. It is the essence of who we are. Learn how to get in touch, see and experience true Love.
Within the spiritual community, there is a belief for many of us that we need to work extremely hard in order to break through our limits in order to reach the goal of awakening. We need to push beyond our present selves and beliefs, and become someone...different, more, better. If only I was more compassionate, served more, got rid of all my triggers, was a better person, understood love, heard and saw my spirit guides, became enlightened, and saved the whales!!!
Folks, this is a lot of pressure.
When we pursue spirituality with the drive of a sports coach, it quickly becomes painful and overwhelming.
It also has the potential to set up spirituality as a kind of self-competitive sport, giving serious (and precious) air time to our inner critic.
It's one thing to become mindful in situations where we may be unnecessarily holding ourselves back due to old habits and fears. It's quite another to push ourselves in a way that can become self-flagellating, literally harming our selves with our loving intention to heal.
The truth is, we already are limitless. Each and every one of us. We all have the seed of infinite possibility within us, waiting to be nurtured (even a tiny bit) to let blossom. The key word here is nurture--to provide sustenance in the physical (good, clean food/water, enough rest), the emotional (supportive relationships in our lives, space), mental (space, mindfulness) and spiritual (meditation, a spiritual practice, connection with our inner Self).
When we drive ourselves to be "better" in a spiritual sense, we actually limit our infinite potential and true divine nature.
When we breathe into our lives--the joys, the pain, the confusion (especially the confusion), we give space to our thoughts and emotions. The weight of the yoke of "being good enough" lessens and eventually falls away completely.
We come to this conclusion quite naturally, though. We feel we must conquer something within us that seems to "take over" at the least opportune moments. Our fears, anxieties, triggers all can easily overwhelm; so why wouldn't we want to conquer them? Wouldn't that mean finally finding peace? We want peace! So we are going to go and get some PEACE! (whip cracking in the background)
Except the more we attack these aspects of our selves, the more they embed within us. The more they are fed, the more we give them affirmation that yes, they are definitely needed. Until we learn to train our minds (mindfulness) and hear the truth in our hearts, they will continue to do what they believe their job is: protecting us.
How can we truly become limitless?
When we connect with our limitlessness through kindness, right action, and love. Especially with our selves. When we approach our pain, suffering and arduous striving with openness, allowing for there to be space (to be mindful, to come back to center, to objectively think things through). That space then allows for love, compassion, patience, and forgiveness to enter our hearts.
The more we push the hurt within, the more it will push back. The practice, then, is to not push back so much as observe. Observing then leads to openness which leads to kindness. Kindness leads to healing which leads to compassion and love. We live limitlessly through our choices in thought, action and speech. We are the creators of our limits--with the same power to release them. It's truly up to us.
When we're faced with something that is painful on any level, that moment is asking us to step back, take our hooks out of the meat, and observe; also known as non-attachment in Buddhism. This can feel ultra-challenging when our emotions, our bodies, and every cell of our being seems to be laser focused on this particular thing/event/person. However, this is exactly why it continues to carry on as it is: painfully.
We have all heard about our thoughts creating our reality. But how, exactly?
As we speak, think, and do, the universe reflects our personal reality back to us. We are but energetic masters creating or devastating our lives based on our thoughts, words and deeds. Anytime we lambast, judge, or hurt someone, we are ultimately creating more pain and negativity in our own lives. Have you ever experienced a positive outcome for everyone involved when blame and judgment are the primary motivators?
This is possible because we all have the ability and means to change our thoughts. For those of us with trauma or PTSD, the road is a little less straightforward than simple "positive thinking." For some, incredibly, that seems to work. For myself though, it never did--in fact, it made me more angry.
When dealing with trauma, working directly with the physiological is a direct way to rewire our brains. Depending on how ingrained the trauma is, a Hakomi therapist or a therapist who integrates mindfulness and body-awareness into their healing practice can literally move mountains. This kind of deep healing and physiological change can also happen with a loving partner. Both of these experiences have been healing for countless people, myself included.
Once in contact with our bodies--the pain and trauma--guided together in the safety of a relationship with another trusted human, new neurological pathways are created. The more we use those "new" pathways, which show up in reality as new ways of thinking, the more ingrained they become. Eventually, they become the norm.
Meditation can also do this for some. However, for those of us with a stubborn streak or an extra strong ego due to past trauma and ingrained behaviors, the help of a professional or amazing loved one, to usher us safely inside ourselves can be life-changing on all levels. In meditation, or while releasing trauma and finding home in our Selves, we're releasing attachments. Shadows that have casted their lengthy darkness over our present experiences. According to Dr. Deepak Chopra:
Love, spiritually, means letting go of all that is known.
In the fourteenth century text, The Cloud of Unknowing, the unknown Christian mystic author states:
Let go of this everywhere and this something, in
exchange for this nowhere and this nothing. Do not
worry if your senses cannot understand this nothing,
for this nothing is why I love it the better...Who is it
that calls it nothing? Surely it is our outer man and not
our inner man. Our inner man calls it All.
Attachment only causes us all great pain. It's based on ego's needs alone, which never has the whole in mind. Let go of this everywhere and this something, in exchange for this nowhere and this nothing...who is it that calls it nothing? Even here the author understands in our quest for surrender, for non-attachment, we can become attached to the very thing we've set out to step back from. It's a practice, like love, of coming home to our Selves, of checking in with what's inside. Surrendering.
What does it mean to surrender?
Often times, this can conjure up feelings of disdain and weakness. This is our ego making us fearful of defeat and being harmed. We often come to a place of surrender while immersed in a very dark time. We're out of options, tried everything, and we're desperate to find the light. Often, this means finally turning back towards our Selves. We offer up our pain to love, and have faith that by doing our part, the universe will do its part. It means taking responsibility for both our actions and thoughts while living in integrity. We rediscover we've held the answers we've sought the entire time, inside our hearts.
In order to feel our heart, we have to be in our bodies. We have to go directly into the difficult emotions and pain for them to release their icy grips on our hearts. Only then can the springtime of love blossom what's always been inside.
Thomas Jefferson famously said, a democracy cannot survive without the "spirit of rebellion." The United States is a country of extreme contradictions: glory and shame equally a part of our journey as a nation.
How do we participate in the current "spirit of rebellion", while holding love as our primary focus? Perhaps even our main goal and outcome? We tap into our passion for the human race--of which we are inextricably linked--and move forward as our hearts call us to.
There are so many issues bombarding all of us in the U.S. at the moment. There are so many huge changes being proposed and legalized, that many of us have moments of overwhelm, confusion, despair. Our hearts are more than heavy, they're breaking over and over.
However, it's through this steady breaking open of our hearts that we're rediscovering our inherent power as individuals and a society. As Lenard Cohen reminds us with his timeless lyric, "there is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in." We're tapping into one of our greatest strengths as a nation, a founding principle--the "spirit of rebellion"--and standing up for what we believe, for what's right for humanity.
What is heart-centered activism? It is connecting heaven and earth, soul and country, body and spirit through love-driven action. This activism allows our bodies and minds to do what needs to be done (which is why we have them) in order to create effective, compassionate change. It's only through love that fear is banished. Love will take our overwhelm and turn it into practical, applicable action items. Those action items may be part of a collective effort or inspiring an individual to new depths and strength to share with the world. The heart has many surprises.
Heart-centered activism could take on so many forms: peaceful protest, calling/emailing/snail-mailing your representatives, making food for the homeless or families who need our help, organizing donations for folks who need help, donating your expertise (medical, legal, spiritual, therapeutic, childcare, tutoring, mentoring...), raising money to help others, speaking up, washing the feet of Muslim immigrants, or simply teaching/modeling to your kids about compassion and kindness to all.
We are waking up to what needs to be done. This generation, like each generation before, is facing it's most critical moment in our democratic history. We're understanding on a profound level what it means to be responsible for our freedoms. The moment overwhelm or fear take their icy grip around your heart, try sitting with it. There it is. Now breathe into it for five deep breaths. As you're breathing, ask: how can I help? how can I serve? The answer may not appear right away, but keep it at the back of your mind for a day or two. Love will guide you. You'll know it's love when you feel at peace with your decision for next steps forward.
Marianne Williams writes our founding father's were not "geniuses who just happened to care about the human race; they were people who cared passionately about the human race, and out of that passion their genius emerged. Love is its own brand of genus. Our only true enemy is neither people or institutions, but fear-laden thoughts that cling to our insides and sap us of our strength...Our greatest political power now is to fear nothing and love everything; then all things will heal."
Love is a knowing, an unwavering solidarity deep down inside ourselves amidst the unpredictability of everyday life.
For most of us, getting to this place of solidarity is a process, and a practice, we must continually choose as our lives unfold. For some, awakening happens overnight and their inherent sense of connectedness is fully realized. They are few and far between, however. In our information-at-our-fingertips age, our practice of coming back to love, choosing love over and over again, can seem daunting and unnatural. It can feel like so much work in the beginning! Especially if we have known love at some point, yet it comes and goes seemingly at it's own will. But is love uncontrollable, vague and impossibly out of reach, especially in the hum-drum of our everyday lives?
Love is a choice.
Love is a choice. It's a moment-by-moment choice in how we are choosing to act. It's a practice and it's a path. For those of us who have experienced trauma--where our ego's did an excellent job of protecting and guiding us through those painful times and experiences--this "choice" can feel threatening. Our ego's only concern is protection of itself. After all, it did a pretty great job keeping us safe. It believes we are separate, isolated, and alone--and it wants to keep it that way. This is precisely how the ego protects itself, inside a hard shell where we're unreachable and untouchable.
Hey, I deal with my stuff and you deal with yours. Your feelings are not my concern. Go get help.
Have you ever felt or heard this or something like it from someone? Perhaps you've even said something like this. There's no judgment here if you have. I lived by this ideology for my young-adult life. It feels terrible. Empty. Hollow. Closing our selves off--to our feelings and the power they have to help us grow--and to each other, is painful. How can we begin to ease the pain? Communicate: to friends for support, to a therapist for tools, to loved ones for the container of love they hold to be completely, utterly you within.
Communication is an act of union.
Communication is an act of union. It literally and figuratively brings us together. Separation (isolation, keeping others at a distance because their feelings make us uncomfortable) is an act of violence. It's painful. Interestingly, we can learn to live with this pain for a long, long time. It becomes the norm in our lives until we're woken up to experiencing a new way of feeling and living.
Once we've begun to open up more, we can begin to communicate with our own hearts. For some reason, that is the scariest place to go when mired in the story of our ego. Going inside feels like certain death, because (according to ego's story) everything we need to be aware of, ahead of, on top of is outside of us, coming at us as potential dangers. Why would I go in when it's already so dark and painful in there?
When our ego feels angry, it is masking fear. Fear masks hurt and hurt is a very scary thing for an ego to confront because it means being vulnerable. Vulnerability, unless modeled to us in our first families or as children, generally conjures up beliefs of personal weakness. None of us have been completely immune to those experiences, especially as children--a vulnerable time for us all--when we first felt what deep betrayal was from a friend or loved one.
So how do we get to this place of living in this unwavering solidarity and knowing--or living through love--in our Selves and with life?
Choosing, again and again, love. Understanding that other's reactions are not a reflection of you, but of themselves. Once we begin to choose love, oftentimes the scariest part is that those around us begin to rebel. They're uncomfortable because what you're doing is upsetting the status quo. This is interesting and something to be aware of, just so you can understand what's happening.
The more you choose love, the easier it becomes. The more you choose to look strangers in the eye and smile, to accept the compliment, to receive a hug, to confront that judgment as it repeatedly arises, the easier it is to do. At first, it can feel excruciatingly hard--that's the ego trying to defend itself. But isn't it harder to harbor anger, resentment and judgment for a lifetime?
As I lay on the grass, I saw something out of the corner of my eye. The late-may sun washed it’s bright, noon light over the foothills, giving the trees, vineyards and rolling grasses a vibrancy as if they were lit up from the inside.
Oh! There it was again. Squinting my eyes and covering my hand over my eyebrows, I saw it: a hawk. Close by were two more. Focusing, I realized they weren’t looking for prey, but they were in deliberate motion. Flying in sync but at a distance with one another, they covered at least a square mile. They were dancing.
Three birds quickly turned to seven, which turned into at least thirty. They were coming from all directions, joining together in a massive, mile long circle that funneled upwards into the sky. They weren't circling as if for prey, eyes on the ground---but they were reaching up, flying higher and higher. It was deliberate. And beautiful.
And fly they did. They soared. They soared so high that the birds at the very top of the swirling mass were barely visible. They became pinpricks of light and dust, reaching even higher than a moment ago, towards the heavens. I was transfixed.
What is going on? I thought.
And I kept seeing them. Everyday, driving to and from class. At lunch. In the trees. There they were. Watching---quite literally---like hawks.
The universe speaks to us in metaphors. I believe that if we are seeing something, hearing something, noticing something over and over and over---it’s a message.
Turns out, the hawk totem animal means a lot of what I have been working on---especially over Memorial Day weekend---while I was out in the beautiful foothills seeing them every day.
The hawk’s presence is telling us to focus, to be less distracted by the details and focus on the higher perspective. Being able to fly so high, the hawk gives us the ability to see what’s ahead clearly and overcome any obstacles that may be in the way.
According to native american traditions, it’s also a messenger from the spirit world, or the world unseen. When it appears, it’s often a symbol of rapid spiritual development and the sharpening of our natural intuition.
Well, then. When I found this out, I literally laughed out loud.
I was seeing hawks everywhere the very weekend I was getting my certification as an energy therapist!
As a yoga teacher and wellness coach, I’ve seen first hand how energy plays such a key role in our overall wellbeing. It’s also the foundation of accupressure, accupuncture, kundalini yoga, Tai Chi, Reiki and countless other ancient-but-now-modern methods of caring for our health.
The form of energy therapy that I’m certified in is called Integrated Energy Therapy. I was drawn to it because it utilizes the immense power of the heart in conjunction with universal energy to facilitate and promote deep healing. IET’s main focus is also on healing the emotional, spiritual and karmic energies we carry with us---versus primarily healing on a physical level, such as the methods I mentioned above.
Energy therapy is a powerful tool which can help remove “ issues from your tissues.” Our bodies are made up of vibrating atoms, which create cells, which create organs and everything else that makes up our physical selves. We are, in essence, a big ball of energy! I know, I know, it doesn’t feel that way all the time (trust me, I get this. I have a toddler!). But at our core, we are all made up of the same atomic particles as everything else in the universe. It still blows my mind.
We are connected. To each other. To everything.
It’s profound and beautiful.
Energy can stagnate in our bodies, causing blockages. Common causes of energy blockages are: physical trauma, emotional trauma, disease, surgery, prolonged exhaustion, high levels of stress, suppressed feelings, fear, and self-limiting thoughts.
As humans, we encounter many of these challenges. All of us also have the ability to naturally heal ourselves. As an energy therapist, I work to facilitate the body’s natural ability to establish and maintain clear, open energy channels in the body. But it’s you and your body that is doing the actual healing.
“Letting go” can oftentimes feel like a loaded term. Used extensively in the personal development world (hello!), sometimes it can have subtle, condescending undertones.
Like, just do it already and get your awesome on!
I mean really, if we could just let go, we would. Trust me, I get this. And honestly, I run into this dilemma often---actually, pretty much daily.
So I’ve been thinking about this idea of letting go quite a bit. I’ve also been feeling through it.
“Feeling through” means leaning in, pushing into our sore spots and cracking open tightly shut doors. For me, it also means creating boundaries where barriers used to stand. All of this generally ignites feelings of fear, uncertainty and oh-my-god-am-I-going-to-die-now-because-I’m-letting-my-guard-down?-and-shit!-they-could-really-hurt-me-because-I-love-them!!!, kind of thing. My inner critic definitely has a flare for the dramatic.
As this is something I’ve been working on, I thought I’d share what I’ve discovered letting go means. And what I’ve found it doesn’t mean.
Letting go means: softening (as opposed to puffing up or feeling like you’re putting on your armor) allowingopeningbeing (as opposed to doing) putting our heartfelt intentions out there, then letting what may, happen (and not worrying or obsessing about the outcome) facing our fears and moving forward anyway (letting go of the past, our stories, or whatever we’ve been telling ourselves that’s held us back all these years…) finding real, deep intimacy with our partners wearing what you REALLY want to wear getting that tattoo (or getting that one removed) praying meditating moving your body trying the new thing saying no to things that make you feel heavy following your joyline, step by tiny step counting on the people in your life who remind you of who you really are (because sometimes, being in the thick of our own lives, we easily lose sight of our beautiful, authentic selves) forgiveness
Letting go does not mean: being lazy that we’re not taking accountability for our own lives becoming a victim of circumstance allowing all hell to break loose because we aren’t in control of our own lives being passive aggressive---saying one thing because it’s “right,” but really feeling another denying what we really feel and shoving it down/away allowing our lives to be ruled by “should’s”
Letting go, I’ve discovered, is a practice. Not unlike meditation. Not unlike yoga. Not even unlike any other practice you may hold near and dear to you---like running, that saturday morning ritual, writing, or creating. It’s like anything that takes perseverance, lots of failing, and picking ourselves back up to try and try again. Every day.
Watch your life expand. Open. Allow. Things you never imagined possible will start showing up and taking hold. Let it happen. Let go.
As I shuffled the deck, I closed my eyes and dropped into my heart. Feeling the tingling in my chest center and out between my shoulder blades, I knew it was time to ask the question, for insight, or for guidance.
What I asked for was an angel card for you.
Galgaliel showed up. She is the angel of feelings, magnetic energy, and universal vibration.
Angel cards have been a part of my covert, special-ops spiritual practice for years. They help me get focused and then expand on an issue or problem. They also give me insight that I wouldn’t have been able to come by on my own.
But I don’t want this part of me to be covert or special-ops anymore. I'm officially making this an overt part of who I am---an everyday part of my life. Something so everyday that you could call me and say, “hey Tricia, I was thinking about such and such concerning our soul’s growth…” and we would carry on as easily as talking about the weather.
Talking about this deep part of myself was one of those things that I had perceived would make others uncomfortable. I’m not interested in putting this on anyone, by any means.
But what I am interested in is living my life congruently. Bringing to the surface and out into the open those things which I live and breathe daily. No more compartmentalizing or denying.
Bring on the congruence!
I invite you to take this info into your weekend and reflect on it’s message. Maybe even do the corresponding yoga pose to help move your energy into a better feeling place!
The Angel Card Let’s get back to Galgaliel---your angel of emotion and vibration.
Emotions create vibration. Think of a time when you were so angry you were shaking (a literal vibration). Or a time when you were so in love you felt invincible. All feelings give movement and momentum to creation. Feelings also cause us to have desires, which intensify our vibrations. This activates the principles of magnetic attraction that draw our desires to us.
The more we deny our feelings, deny parts of ourselves and living congruently, the more energetically dense we become. Slower. Harder to change. Afraid. These emotions of fear vibrate very slowly. Think of a time when you felt anxiety or simply fear. Did you feel it was possible to change and move forward? To do something to better the current situation? Sometimes when we are in that state of slow moving energy, it’s easier to spin and worry...and worry some more. Energy can not speed up into a higher vibration (or feeling better) unless we introduce higher vibrating feelings.
Galgaliel’s message is it’s time to reclaim our power by recovering our true feelings. This is done through emotional release---journaling, exercise, singing, chanting, crying really hard for as long as it takes to feel peace, calling a trusted friend. First, we must work to free and release those feelings. Soon, your powerful, inspired, life changing thoughts will then follow.
Sound is a powerful vibration that helps move energy effectively. Try finding a quiet space and just making different sounds. Open your mouth wide, then start making a low sound gradually going into higher sounds---like a backwards sigh. If a particular sound wants to be made heard, don’t try to force yourself to keep exploring different sounds. Stick with it. This is particular energy ready for release.
Recently, I was doing an energy healing meditation for myself and found myself needing to make a certain long, drawn out sound during the “silent” part. It just kept coming and felt good. Once I got over the “hey wait, what? I’m not supposed to be doing it like this!” part and just went with it, I felt calmer---smoother---and full of life energy (as opposed to a caffeine energy that’s more jumpy) than I had in a long, long time.
The easiest time to begin a release is when something has just gone wrong and you find yourself upset. Go for it. Get upset. Find an appropriate outlet (see the suggestions above) and let it out!
“The power and intensity of negative emotions provide fuel to burn through the rigid structure that has been controlling the flow of energy and vibrations, both in our bodies and out into the world. “ ---Kimberly Marooney
Let those repressed feelings and thoughts go. Make room for a new, higher vibration (also known as a better feeling!) energy. Your higher vibration will magnetically attract more of what you actually want. Imagine! So let yourself be you. Let those old, slow churning, black-hole-leaving feelings out. Express them. Witness them. Thank them. Then, let yourself be filled with the high vibrating energy that you already are.
Soon, you’ll start to see things shift. Friends who you can truly connect with will show up. A new and wonderful job opportunity may appear. New ideas that inspire you will start forming. A new mate or a more meaningful relationship with your current mate will manifest. You may come across your perfect living situation.
This won’t all happen overnight. But if we start the process of unblocking and uncensoring ourselves now, living overtly and congruently day by day, what we want will take shape.
It will happen.
The Yoga Pose Wheel pose will help get your energy moving in unexpected ways. Because of the nature of this pose---where the entire front of our body is opened up---it’s assisting us in moving energy through all seven chakras.
Notice if there’s any spot in your body that feels hard---like there’s a pit or a knot. For me, this has recently been in my solar plexus (right where your rib cage meets above your stomach) and throat. Focus on breathing into and opening up those areas. Intentionally send your breath there by saying as you inhale “I am breathing into X place that feels heavy/blocked/like a pit/etc. and I am exhaling that block out…” Repeat until you feel a resounding "yes! it's cleared."
Do the wheel 3-5 times while working on breathing into your emotional/energetic knots. Then just lay there in shivasina or corpse pose for five minutes (or longer!). Notice any differences or shifts. Feel free to do the wheel more or less as needed!